A while ago I was asked what I wat I was searching for in a woman and was somewhat ashamed to find myself without a reasonable answer at that time. I’ve given the matter some thought though and now I realize that I already met my perfect woman more than ten years ago. At least, she was perfect to me at the time – haven’t seen her since.
It was in the first year of high school that I first saw her – we were still in the old Pierson building near the Central Station in ‘s-Hertogenbosch then (where the Van Lanschot Tower is located nowadays) – she didn’t notice me then but I noticed her when she came storming in our class room during my first class at high school. Unfortunately, it soon turned out to be the wrong classroom for her so she was quickly gone and I didn’t see here again until two years later.
At the beginning of the third year I suddenly found her in my class for real but during the first few weeks there was no contact. After becoming more comfortable and finding somewhat of a position in the pack as the class joker and trouble maker she suddenly came up to me during the beginning of a class and said: “Hey Bas, I’m gonna sit next to you”. From that moment on – we were inseparable for the next two years – I went to school with more enthusiasm than is normal and immediately gained a status boost amongst my piers. The third year we grew a little bit apart mainly because there weren’t a lot of shared classes anymore due to our increasingly different course selections. She went alpha and I went beta but remained pretty close when we were able. Luckily, we were still able to share Economics and English at that time. I think we also shared Dutch but I may be completely off.
For me Tabitha represents the ideal woman and I now realize that I subconsciously compare each and every woman I meet to my personal Tabitha standard:
- She has a nice face and booty
- Is not afraid to show her good looks
- And is an expert at this
- Is friendly
- Has a clear own will, interests and taste
- And is not afraid to express this
Of course she also actually has to like being around me and now that I cannot depend on screwing in class anymore that is usually the hard part. Being at work is just not like sitting in a class goddammit. Too much depends now and I just cannot afford the enterprise equivalent of being sent to the principal three times a week.
Anyway, Tabitha sat next to me during at a whole lot of classes and I’ve liked her very much since the first time she did. She always seemed to feel so comfortable to be around me which in turn made me feel comfortable to be around her. I never really tried to be anything more than just friends because the relationship we had was just too precious to me and I didn’t want to ruin it. Also, I always assumed that my feelings would be obvious for her so just hoped that maybe someday she would come to me. It never happened of course and now that I’m reflecting upon this with current knowledge I tend to regret not trying something.
And now I find myself in a similar situation but thanks to my own impatience, lack of knowledge, insight and maybe most importantly: confidence, I’ve have made things even more complicated since I first wrote about it and may even have screwed up things completely.